No. 002: To My First Love

The Still Unsaid submission

"How could love die so quickly after burning so bright?"

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My first love,

I still think about you every day, multiple times a day, nearly 20 years after we ended things. At the time, I thought it was mutual. But then it just...wasn't. You moved on, became a seemingly better person of yourself, and moved on in love too, so quickly. I moved on too, but not really. I found love again, but there you still lived in my heart, no matter how hard I've tried to push you out.

I still wonder "why?" Was I too broken? Too wild? Not enough? How could love die so quickly after burning so bright?

I still wonder if one day we'll find each other again, even though it's the most impossible idea. I wonder if I even cross your mind.

I wish I could forget you, replace our relationship with one worth forgetting. The intensity that was first love, how pure, how reckless, how all encompassing it felt. I mourn that I'll never feel that way again.

I've created a beautiful life without you, but I'll never stop wondering, were you the one?

Submitted by Anonymous